Those nights when my mind simply won’t shut off – End of the Day for September 8, 2014

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Ug. I’m struggling tonight. I only got about 3 hours sleep last night. I could blame on the heat and humidity, but in reality it was my damned mind. It simply wouldn’t stop running. At one moment it was running over the lines of the student film I am working on. The next it was filled with music and lyrics that Joseph wants me to teach him. The next it was spinning off Italian phrases. When that last one happens I know I am truly screwed. For whatever reason, since our visits to Sicily, when my mind is running crazy it seems to trigger the deep recesses of my mind where i think and speak in Italian. This has happened whenever we have visited. After a day of struggling to speak Italian, my mind just switches over entirely. I’m not sure why it decides to do that when I have been thinking in English for months, but it does. Maybe it has something to do with how deeply language sits in our overall brain structure. Perhaps I am just exhibiting the same behaviors as when a baby babbles endlessly as they try to make sense of language.

Image from page 14 of "The sleeping beauty picture book : containing The sleeping beauty, Bluebeard, The baby's own alphabet" (1911)

Regardless of the reason, I was awake until at least 330am or so. Then I was awoken by some large noise in the night around 430am but fell asleep again until about 7am. I tried all my usual tricks. I read a bit. I wrote down everything that was on my mind. I drank some water. I stayed lying down in the dark, but —nothing. Luckily this wasn’t one of those nights when I was frantic for sleep. I didn’t have to be up early, so I knew I would eventually get some sleep, but it still bothered me in some ways. I knew I would pay for it today as I struggled to get my work done. It wasn’t as bad as I feared, but still made life just a little bit more difficult than it needed to be.

The only good things to come from this is I am plenty tired tonight and should be able to get to sleep at a normal time. Almost like a reboot, maybe I just needed to hit Ctri-Alt-Delete to put things back in order. It works for computers, why not for the human brain. So, for now, it’s time to hit Start Menu, Turn off computer and Shutdown until tomorrow.

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